The hardest thing about realizing you don’t love me, is that you spent so much time pretending that you did.

(Source: confirmance)

"Sometimes, the only reason why you won’t let go of what’s making you sad is because it was the only thing that made you happy."

"That’s how you know you love someone, I guess, when you can’t experience anything without wishing the other person were there to see it, too."

The Descendantes (via buhaybabae)

(Source: quoteverything)

Dear someone,

probably you never want to hear anything from me ever, from the very last time you said goodbye. I know I was supposed to say these things to you in person but I’m still saving a lot of energy and courage to tell you this.. so here it goes,

the last time you said goodbye to me was so painful that I almost died inside.. it’s like a bombshell in my chest just exploded.. I wanted to cry all night but I just can’t because I have work and I could not afford to lose my job which I have been wanting to have my whole life.. I know you have all the right to leave me, but leaving me thru viber was so insulting.. I spent one third of my life to you (i know you did the same) but I wished that meant more than viber messages.. not to mention you didn’t even cared to call.. I also know that I’ve hurt you in some ways but I believe that I loved you more than you’ll ever know.. maybe our situation just sucks because as much as I wanted to see you often, to hold you and hug you and to not just to tell you with words of how much you mean to me, I wanted you to feel it.. I wanted to always sit right next to you, be silent with you and just feel that I am home because I’m near to you.. but I just can’t.. I’ve been longing to do that for almost 8years and I’m sorry if at one point I have failed.. but I have always chosen you.. I hope you realized that our relationship is more than just breaking up thru chat.. I am currently hurt and in pain but I am slowly doing well.. I am trying to be strong for myself because no one really knows how I feel except me.. I cry a couple times whenever i’m alone.. but don’t pity me.. I am trying my best to recover.. I don’t know about you, how are you doing or how happy you are now.. I don’t even want to know because I want to free myself of hurt.. I don’t want the last 8years of my life to end up in trash.. so I want you to know that I’m thankful to you for loving me.. you’re not perfect and neither am I.. I thank you for accepting me for who I am.. thank you for challenging me to strive hard to reach my dreams.. you might not know but it’s because of you that I am still striving hard to be successful.. thank you for building and breaking my heart quite a lot of times.. it’s also because of you that I became strong.. my job is not that easy.. I get discouraged almost everyday, I get yelled at for simply doing my job.. there’s this one time that I came out of my patient’s room full of blood and vomit.. and then the doctor shouted at me and I don’t know why.. but the thing is, those pain were temporary while what I’m feeling today is unbearable.. this silence is just defeaning.. I miss us but how ironic it is because there is no longer an us.. I’m not trying to win you back.. I just wish you all the best in life..


"I wish I could forget you like you forgot me."

I shouldn’t miss someone who doesn’t miss me // R.R. (via missinyouiskillingme)

"I wish I was pretty and funny and had nice legs and a flat stomach and could run for 10 minutes straight without dying."